May 3, 2016

someday is today

"It's the oldest story in the world. One day you're 17 and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you really noticing: someday is today, and then someday is yesterday, and this is your life." - NATHAN SCOTT
I recently wrapped up a One Tree Hill series re-watch. And that took me back to when it ended, 4 years ago. In 2012 I was a Senior at Maryville. It seemed like all in one fell swoop I was being kicked out on my ass. My favorite show for the last 9 years ended. I was graduating college about 4 weeks from that time. I was moving from St. Louis to Savannah, Ga. It was all very hard to take in. Exciting, of course. But also very very scary.

Let's go back even further, shall we.

It is 2009. I'm a senior in high school. I cannot wait to blow that popsicle stand. I had been working my tail off for the last 4 years taking honors classes, dual credit college courses, and advanced placement classes all working toward getting into the universities of my choice. I also took drafting classes and read tons of books to set me ahead of other students on the same degree path. I was moving to STL to get my interior design degree. I had wanted to be an interior designer since I was 10. All of my hard work was paying off and my plan was finally set into motion. 

Fast forward 3 years to 2012. I'm a senior in college this time. Yes, that's right. I graduated with a 4 year degree and 2 minors is 3 years. The catch here: interior design was out. 3 degree changes later, photography was in. I was now moving to Savannah, Georgia, to study in the MFA photography program. This is not what I had in mind when I started college. 

I spent a year in Savannah. I made it through half of the program, but I was not happy. It was not what I wanted or thought it would be. I didn't know what I wanted, but I knew I didn't want to be there.  I moved back to Illinois and back in with my parents. This was not my plan. I had failed. Or thought I had anyway.

Fast forward one more time. We're back in 2016. And I'm thinking: We spend so much time planning for "the future" and then somehow without us noticing, the future arrives. Is this was I was planning for all those years? Right now? For some people, I'm sure where they are is what they always dreamed and always planned. For me? Not the case.

This future - This someday - is more than I could have ever dreamed or planned it to be. I never planned to be living in my hometown ever again, honestly. But I couldn't imagine my life anywhere else. I never planned to own a studio. But I do, and I'm successful. I never planned to be a homeowner by the time I was 25. But I was. 

This is my life. This is not how I planned it. But this, this is good. I have such a full life. Full of happiness. Full of people I love. Full of people who inspire me. Full of people who look to me for advice and support. I can't help but think that this might not be the case had I followed my "plan."

You can never fully plan for how your life will turn out. Especially when you start planning your life when you are 15.

What I know for certain is this life that I live, that I didn't plan for, is a beautiful one. And I can't imagine it any other way.

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  1. I read that quote and thought hmmm nathan scott I think he was a character on OTH...and then I kept reading and yep looks like that is what you were talking about! Loved reading this - it's so true, the future that we planned for is sort of here...

  2. I LOVE that quote and that show! So true. You can plan and plan and plan for your future but you shouldn't forget to live it!

  3. Love that quote. It is crazy to think back to when we were in high school and college and where we thought we were going to be in 5, 10, 15 years. For me, it will be 15 years this month that I graduated high school. Wow. I didn't realize that until I was typing this comment. I am no where near where I thought I was going to be but I love where I am at and it is so much better!!! On another note, I never watched One Tree Hill but my husband watched it with his sister and loved it. Maybe I should go binge!

  4. Love this, love oth, love you. SO GOOD.

  5. So so true that the plan you have when you are 17 is rarely the way life ends up. I had a totally different plan for my life and could never have predicted where I ended up, but it's fantastic, although I still have trouble living life not on a specific plan :).